This is the first time I have spoken about the most important thing about this educational trip.
A week after I returned home, my world shattered. Literally. It was the day when you think you’re going to die. To some, it might no be like that, but to me it was because FAMILY means a lot to me.
My partner and me broke up after a long relationship. Overnight I had nothing left. I had 200 Euros in my wallet and a dog in my car.
I left behind a half built villa with 600 square meters of living space; I put all my heart, my creativity, hours of work and making arrangements into it(we were building it on our own which means I held each and every brick). The villa is located on the most heavenly location I have ever seen – in the nature, just under the highest peak of Lower Carniola, with the view all the way to Karavanke Mountains and Novo Mesto valley. We picked the location after more than a hundred visits of different locations.
I left the apartment we built, furnished and decorated 4 years ago. I picked every piece of furniture and all details. We also had a rental apartment in Ljubljana.
I left behind all my effort I put into my partner’s company, public relations and other work. I left behind all planned trips, dreams, plans for the future and planning a family.
Last and not least, I left behind a person I loved dearly, almost painfully.
I didn’t have my personal account and I didn’t have my company because everything I did was through my partner’s company, even selling my books.
I had a few thousand Euros of debt because I was not aware of the changes in the legislation for student small businesses. It was pointed out to me after 6 years of owning a student small business and now I have to pay almost all contributions for those years. I talked about that with my partner when I found out, but we decided that all finance should be saved for the house and that we would pay that debt eventually.
I had all my belongings packed into my car, I was sitting in the bar, drinking green tea with milk, but I was in complete hypnosis. I don’t now who was there, what was happening, nothing. The only thing I knew was that before nightfall, I have to find a place to stay for my dog and me. I called a few landlords and luckily found a man, who was ready to rent the apartment in an hour.
This was the worst day of my life. I thought I was going to need at least a year to be able to socialize and work. Not to mention the debts and living costs I had to face.
I cried so much I threw up in a few hours, then fainted and finally fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning.
I had a bad headache, but water can heal almost any headache (I’m against painkillers and pills, unless they are necessary).
I took my dog for a walk and then fired up my computer.
Okay, what do I have and what can I do with it?
I have my book. I can lecture, write, I have extensive knowledge of entrepreneurship, psychology and sales (of course, I lived with one of the best Slovene young entrepreneurs for many years).
What can I do this month to earn money and pay debts?
I had many ideas.
What do I need to do it?
First of all – either start freelancing or find an employment. Now! Then open a personal bank account and start paying off debts. Are there any subsidies available? None. What can I do without them?
Who can I do it with?
Again many ideas.
Whan should I do it?